An Open Letter About My Addiction



I had been struggling with drug abuse and addiction for years. My drug of choice was alcohol. I didn’t realize just how bad the problem was. When I look back on it, it seems like it began with a glass of wine before bed. Gradually, this glass of wine got bigger. It grew to the size of souvenir sports cups that they sell at stadiums. I used to tell myself, and my wife, that it wasn’t that bad. It was mostly ice. I knew this was a lie.

The problem got progressively worse. My kids grew up and left the house. I felt as though I just wasn’t needed anymore. Sure, the kids called home from time to time; however, it was always to ask for money. I felt like my life had run its course. I started to drink more. I was bored. That was the honest truth. I was simply bored and alcohol made it easier to pass the time.

It then got out of control. One night, I was looking over the receipt from vacation and realized that, somehow, I had charged 90 alcoholic drinks to the room in the span of 14 days. I tried to blame it on my oldest child. He was 21 at the time. I don’t know why I thought that would work. He stayed in a different room and didn’t drink despite being in college.

I hit rock bottom when one night my wife came home and found me passed out next to the bed. She had to call the doctor who lived next door for help. I woke up in the intensive care unit with a breathing tube down my throat. That was my rock bottom. It was time to ask forhelp. Little did I realize just how much my life would change after I got sober.

My Relationships with My Friends and Family Got Better

Look, I’m not here to tell you that the journey to sobriety is going to be easy. Addiction recovery is hard. There were times when I fought with my family. I didn’t want to go to an inpatient facility. My life was at home; however, it was important. When I finally took my sobriety seriously, my relationship with my friends and family got better. They got better because I no longer felt like I had anything to hide. I no longer felt like they were always looking to see if I was drinking again. I was able to let my guard down and just be myself without anything to worry about. This made my life so much easier. The guilt was gone.

I Discovered Who I Am

If you are struggling with sobriety and want to take the path to addiction recovery, you need to know that who you are when you are under the influence of drugs and alcohol is not you. You are a totally different person from that individual. When you are under the influence of drugs and alcohol, you are going to do things that are totally out of character. You are going to say things you don’t mean. You are going to engage in activities that you wouldn’t otherwise try. Instead, you are a totally different person when you find sobriety. During your road to addiction recovery from alcoholism and drug abuse, you’re going to find out just who that person is.

I Found Out What I Wanted

For years, all I cared about was how long it was going to be until I had my next drink. I would count down the hours. I would count down the minutes. I would even count down the seconds as I filled my glass. I couldn’t wait to satiate the addiction growing inside of me. Once I conquered my addiction, I found out what I truly wanted. I no longer wanted to have that next drink. Instead, I wanted to travel the world. I wanted to see my kids graduate school. I wanted to spend more time with my family members and friends. I wanted to see the world clearly for the first time. I realized that all of this was possible because I had found my sobriety. You can as well.

How My Journey to Sobriety Began

My journey to sobriety started with a single step. It starts by asking for help. You should ask for help as well. Lean on your family members and friends but also appreciate the role that trained professionals are going to play. Soba Texas is a drug & alcohol treatment program located in San Antonio, TX. Soba Texas offers a unique luxury program that combines traditional treatment and modern therapies to assist clients in conquering their addiction. Contact us today!